The "NO" inside

I guess we tend to refer to the "no" as our conscience, but I thought it warranted a little more specificity. That's because our consciences can ramble on with rationalizations, exceptions, and debates. And quite frankly, our consciences, were they a little less subconscious, would often no doubt mimic schizophrenia. The "no", on the other hand, which for the sake of this discussion, I'll assume is a special segment of the conscience, is very definitive and unwavering. I think that if you can be honest with yourself, you would have to admit nearly hearing the "no" at times because it is just that powerful. Nevertheless, despite its awesome potency, the nearly audible "no" is frequently overwhelmed by the oft confused vacillations of the greater conscience. The result is a conscious decision to override the "no".

The consequences of overriding the "no" is what makes this discussion worth having. Some will argue that because what's done is done, and because ultimately the choices that we make are generally not subconscious, but very much conscious by the time we make them, discussing that voice inside is an exercise in futility. I contend that by taking a look at what's going on when we make the decision to muzzle the "no" we might find a way to give the "no" a bit more leverage in these internal contests. I'm confident that there are very few if any "sane" adults who have not had regrets about overriding the "no". Our current circumstances usually are in some way affected by those decisions. This is not to say that the "no" is an infallible prognosticator of our destiny. But, in general, it's probably safe to say that it is those decisions not to transform the ethereal "no" into a verbalization or action that we tend to rehearse in out minds and to regret.

The "Just Say No" campaign is a great example of a unified effort to empower the "no" that exists in probably every mature individual. It is an acknowledgment that there is a great benefit to converting this internal intentionality into actions or words. And now I would like to join ranks with those who view rehearsing regrets as a useless endeavor. We can not change the past. But hopefully, having had this discussion will give your "no" some traction in your next crossroad. Because it seems that, while the greater conscience is focused on the here and now, the "no" seems to have been transported into the future and gotten a quick glimpse of the potential repercussions of the decisions about to be made. The "no" inside is powerless. It has to be released into the atmosphere for its energy to help steer our courses. Writing this has made me feel like I've strengthened my "no", but only after the next test will I really know if that's the case.

Being A Thug

(Disclaimer: The liberal over usage of certain words and phrases often attributed to the subjects of this blog, is not an attempt to influence the reader's opinions( Lies))

Yo, who wouldn't wanna be a thug yo?

Bein a thug mean neva havin to say i'm sorry yo

Thugs don't have to say excuse me yo

And we don't need to say thank you when you do somethin for us yo or give us somethin yo

Yo we don't have to look both ways before crossin the street, or move out of the way of moving vehicles.

Thugs don't have to do what we say we gonna do. We do what we feel like doin at the time yo

Cry? get real yo. das for bytches yo.

Yo we wear the same clothes yo, so don't act like you didn't know we wasn't gonna move out DA way when you was driving down da street yo.

Yo don't worry bout our lungs being fucked up by da time we turn fawty. Got ta have dem smokes yo.

Yo what's da difference between yo front lawn and a trash can? DAMN! stop ackin like a bytch yo.

Oh yeah and feelings are for bytches yo. My dawgz don't have none. And I don't either yo. But don't be callin a niggah retarded yo. Nigga don't like dat shyt. I go to college.

I'm about me yo. You better be about you.

You might not know it, but you you need a THUG!

Hillary's Bushisms

1. Champion of feigned remorse
2. All apologies come with complimentary caveats in fine print.
3. Would also have the USA at war with a middle eastern flea( intuitionally challenged)
4. Questionable understanding of how words translate into dead fathers, sons, daughters, brothers, mothers, and sisters.
5. Patronizing all (Pay attention and you'll see exactly what I refer to)

BEWARE. LIKE OVERLY ANXIOUS FLIES AND WORMS OF THE DEAD, PREHISTORIC HARBINGERS PREMATURELY CELEBRATE YOUR COURSE AND SPEED.

NOBODY'S SAYING THAT THEY'RE

NOT OFF THE CHAIN BUT....

WOULD THE OUTCOME HAVE BEEN

THE SAME IF THEY WERE WHITE FAGS?

http://video.nbc6.net/player/?id=101806

These dudes were foolish to think that they could do what they did OR ANYTHING ELSE, legal or illegal as black as they are, in a predominantly white neighborhood. I suppose they're too young to realize that even being on their best behavior would receive stepped up scrutiny under the circumstances. Why weren't the storm troopers knocking on the business owner's doors? Why wasn't there video of him? And what would we find if ALL of the "appalled" neighbors' homes were under surveillance? And what about their businesses? This is food for thought and a window into the mind of someone capable of seeing things from more than one perspective. You can react to this with affected pious disdain, but remember that the problem with hypocrisy is not so much that it selectively addresses evils, but that it deliberately or sometimes delusionally ignores evil in the process.

I used to wonder why MOST Jewish people would endure the crap they've historically faced in this country, when it's so easy for them to choose to blend in with non Jews. I've come to the conclusion that it's about embracing their heritage and choosing, despite substantial negative consequences to exercise the right to just be ones self. So being black,gay, and completely grown up(but forever learning),I do feel some kind of way when the black gay community comes up short in the intestinal fortitude department when compared to Jewish people. But even more troubling is the twisted thinking that glorifies the lack of pride and appreciation for our own heros and our own selves.
Just to nip some juvenile retorts in the bud, let me say that a lot of you are a lot more clockable than you believe. Instead of disparaging those who are out, you should thank them. Because your being DL is a choice not a necessity because of those out people. They are creating a boundary between what society in general can or can't get away with in its dealing with gay people.

The monkey in the white house continues to defy the will of the people of his country, assuming that he's not the ultimate sleeper agent, sent to demoralize the once indisputable most powerful nation in the world. While some of our citizens continue to feast on the propaganda, demonizing the "what do I see with my own eyes" test, others see clearly a country that proposed to inflict shock and awe upon a minuscule mosquito of a nation, suffering from a self-inflicted state of confusion, isolation, and disdain.

I'm not that old. But I do remember the days when the leader of this country understood that he was not the ultimate authority. In those days, it would have been a conflict of interest to resent and belittle the very document that that leader, like so many servicemen who've died in battle, swore to defend. And yet there are many who yell patriotism when defending one who applauds their continued state of denial. Their inability to just step back and "do the math", as it were, precludes them from demanding a real answer to the question "what would constitute a victory in Iraq?" What could happen there that would justify the countless tragedies? What could happen there that would forgive the lies that served as the catalysts for an unjust sacking, plundering, and infection of a nation? I hope for a day when I can say that my fellow citizens woke up... a day when epiphany arrives with the loss of the child of a stranger who lives thousands of miles away, not only at the loss of ones own child. But America, the giant who sleeps, and who some thought had been awakened, yet sleeps in her arrogance, condescension, and ambivalence. Sleep on USA. Sleep on. Rome was not built in a day. But in less days she crumbled. Nothing lasts forever.